We've been pretty good about making Serif lay down at night and put himself asleep, until a few days ago.
Friday, I was pitting him to bed with the normal routine of reading books by his moon light, lights out, prayers with a little cuddle time and kisses with lots of "I love you's". Well, this night he was a little sweaty and I was lifting his hair and blowing on his head to cool him down, all while saying prayers and cuddling. Any time I'd stop, he'd ask if I'd blow there some more and would tap his forehead, it was so sweet that it took several times stopping for me to finally stop, I finally had to say the final good night. It didn't go that well as he pleaded me to stay. It took several tries of him getting up and me having to put him back in there and after a couple times I had to shut his door. He does not like the door closed and I can usually just mention that and it will keep him in bed. Every time I'd leave the room he'd cry. It was a torn moment of sadness and melting and "is he just playing me?"
For some reason, this night broke me. I felt so mean and suddenly couldn't understand what was so bad about laying with him until he fell asleep? I broke down as i talked with Jeff about everything and by the time we were done talking he was asleep. Later that night (and the next couple) I caved. Those nights were good. I enjoyed them and I know he did, however, he got up several times each night wanting me to come lay down with him and he wouldn't let me leave until he was asleep. Not so good of a habit to get in to.
This night, Friday, he was in bed and had been asleep for a while. He woke up and came to get me and got upset when I wanted to go back to bed. He started to cry and said, " Don't you want to sleep with me?". Now I had already laid with him twice until he had fallen asleep. Each time he slept for at least an hour. This time I was getting frustrated and I just wanted to sleep. I felt terrible when he said that though. He finally laid down and let me go to bed. About 5 minutes later I hear, " Mommmm-mmmyyyyy!" Jeff bailed me out at this point and I was finally able to go to sleep. Despite the fact that I was exhausted by this point, it was funny to hear him holler for me. Kind-of weird and another moment of realizing just how much he's growing.
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